Due to technical difficulties, I'm posting this topic for Ree Vera.
Ah, the internal editor. We try so hard to resist it. We fight it, smother it, and do our best to just plain ignore the urge to let it have its way. Until at last…our MS is ready for that final thing. (dun dun dun!)
*cue horrified scream*
Every writer, at one point, must go through it. I mean—our goal is to one day publish our work, right? And you can’t do that without some sort of editing.
Well, you could….I guess.
So I’ve been going through some major editing blues. I’m not usually one to get defensive when it comes time for editing, but this go round really had me on the edge. So I thought I’d share what I’ve been going through…
The: ‘You want me to do what?!’
The: ‘Pfft. You can’t perfect perfection.’
I mean come on. You’ve labored on this story for so long that I’s like….it’s your baby. There is absolutely nothing wrong with it. Don’t they know amazing when they see it?
There is no perfect first draft. No such thing.
I GOT THIS
Oh the blind confidence. You take a look at those suggested revisions and think it’s going to be a piece of cake. Cross a few t’s, dot a few i’s…no big deal. How bad can it be?
Then you see it. The bleeding plot holes and loose threads. Dry dialogue. Overused clichés. Wordy chapters , misspelled words, and all those damn commas you can’t seem to stop using cuz you’re a junkie and need help!! *breathes* Ahem. Sorry. Where were we?
IT’S GOING TO BE FINE
I loved being in denial. LOL. I really did. Those loose threads? Pish posh. Nobody will notice. They’ll be so amazed by my story that even that character I kinda forgot about won’t even be an issue. I’ll just make a few minor adjustments and…voila!
So many corrections. You look at your MS and it seems like once you find one thing wrong…a billion other things come into sight. It’s awful! Or so you think. So I thought. I even thought about just throwing in the towel. Giving up. It was a brief notion, but a notion just the same. I read, watched movies, skyped, and pretty much everything except think about writing. Or editing. I think I even cried.
Ok, yeah, I did.
*sad violin music*
I say this because I don’t want you to think you’re doing something wrong if you feel like this at some point. Being a writer doesn’t make you superman/superwoman. You’re still human. It’s okay to get a little desperate cuz it happens. Just don’t let it get the best of you. Pout. Cry. Scream if you have to.
Then move on.
ANGELS IN DISGUISE
Friends. Writing Peers. Loved Ones.
They help you when you’re feeling down. Whether it’s a shoulder to soak with your tears or the kick in the pants you need (but don’t really want)…they’re so important. As writers, it’s so easy to withdraw. To isolate ourselves. We think and see things differently. Get lost in our own world.
Don’t get so lost that you lose those ties with the ones who truly care. They’ll be your saving grace.
I got that pep talk and felt inspired. So with renewed hope and confidence, I pulled out that MS and got down to business.
All this dawdling had taken two weeks off my time limit. So I would have to get to business fast. Some long hours and a couple of red eyes later….the revisions were done. I hit send and leaned back, relaxed….
Yeah….there are more revisions needed. It’s a process. But I’m not going to freak out.
So are you at that stage yet? Editing? Have you experienced anything like this?
Or maybe I’m just crazy after all…who knows?
~Minerva Ree Vera